Why?WHy?

I decided to make this post since lately an increasing number of people asked me why Astronomy?

Well... to be honest, i thought i did not know why.

And that question dwindled in me for quite some time.

Then again, i asked myself

'Why did I actually choose that?

Why did I take this path?

Why did i decide to make do with this lifestyle?'

And there were more questions.And i found the answer.

I chose this path because i believed that this is the right path for me.

That with this, 

I can satiate my hunger for knowledge

I can help more people understand the beauty of life, nature and the universe itself.

I can make good use of my time

I can be better than the loser me.

I can experience world in whole new different ways.

I was right though, I did live life the way i wanted to.

I succeeded in being better, being knowledgeable.

Nevertheless, despite this pain, tiredness, restlessness, and anxiety, I know that this is not how everything suppose to end my journey. I knew that my problem is not big at all. I knew that i'm just exaggerating it, and how much i wanted to run away from it.

I can't believe how initially everything seemed easy and the closer I am to all of this, the harder is the shit life throws at me.

Sometimes i wanted to cry pitying myself, but i didn't cause i wanted to be stronger than before.

Many people have bigger problems than i do, many people couldn't be able to get the chance i've got.

And of course, many people's dream got crushed by me.

That's why i'll keep pushing forward in this life, through the shit and everything life threw at me.

My motto is to "never live life in regret for all is well", and i'm astounded to know that i've never even regretted my own decision to take this path.

I just hope that my will would be strong enough and at last i"ll be able to end something that i actually started.

And i have the strength to overcome my weakness for me, for my friends and for everyone who've believed in me my whole life.

Let me end this post by giving you a piece of quote i found hilarious yet inspiring

"Happiness is having the urge to take a dump and be able to find a nice place with a sprayer and closet to let everything go" - Unknown