"Absurd" is a word that is popular among my national team, so it's weird that i have the thought to use it now.
To be honest, today i haven't done anything productive. Deep down, i know i should be a prolific student somewhat but.... i guess sometimes i could still lose my sense or worse lose my MIND.
Anyway, here i am spending my time reading my senior's blog www.davidorlando.com .It's somewhat inspiring, it reminds me that everyone makes mistakes. It's totally humane, however i just don't know i guess. I don't know why and i don't know how i've gotten to where i am now. Totally lost. I know that all of this is merely bull but i just can't believe where i am now, what i've gotten so far despite all my ass work.
I'm probably one of the new starters in this Astronomy field and how life leads me is just amazing. I've met so many great individuals, like really great in terms of characteristics and power. SO..... i guess i am finally able to feel and realize where i am going.This anxiety i feel is over-excitement which i could not apprehend and change it into my "fuel" initially.
What i am saying is that this is the present, this is what i'm living in and living for. No matter what gets in my way, i'll prosper in my own way and i believe that i have the capabilities to think, to make decisions, much less to determine what's best for myself as that what i've been doing up to now.
I've finally realized that i"ve been alone up to now, however not as in physical situation. It's more like in life.When i fight, i always fight alone. I've never been dependent on people but i guess i could always open up and accept others in ways i can.
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