Friday, February 14, 2014

Cake for Valentine

So today (yesterday actually since im typing this after midnight) was my birthday, and i woke up just like another day. Wanting to back to sleep due to sleep deprivation.

Since the 2 days before, i received the task to bring risol for the whole class.that matter solidified into my head as what i need to make sure to happen. Then, when i arrived at school, apparently i forgot to bring my math notebook (i thought that i put it somewhere else) so i had to write everything in my exercise book.

During the first recess, i went straightly to the gate to retrieve my bag with risol inside, and what pissed me that my math notebook was also inside. Anyway, after getting my bag, i focused on the highlight of the day, which is giving Tiffany some matcha chocolate. Fortunately, glen and imelda brought her to our class so i didn't have to embarass her in front of her classmates. So, after she said happy birthday to me and shook my hand (first time ever!! soft hand btw) , i gave her the chocolate which was wrapped in a aqua blue with tree motives wrapping paper (which supposed to be her favourite color). She told me "comik u yang ho wa a? kan u yang se jit.(TL: Why are you the one who give me stuff? You're the birthday boy). So i said "wa cuman gien ho aja" (TL: I just want to give it to you) and smile awkwardly. Afterwards, she thanked me and walked away with glen and imelda who teased her with high-pitched voice.

Later then, i rushed to find a laptop. Eventually, i borrowed one from Vinzoct. However, miss didnt bring any speaker so i needed to find a set. So, i went out to find one from XI-Sci-02 (but there was no one) so i almost decided to get back to class but i saw that some of them were alarming other. Later, i found out that X-01 also has a set. After returning with the speaker, they gave me a surprise by singing me a happy birthday song while Agnes gave me a simple cake which is somewhat soothing. The theme of his laptop was SAO (using health bars to display RAM and CPU usage,etc) which was cool. Then during TOEFL subject, we ate risol together (one for each person except me since i ate some the night before) while watching ice age 4.Then later, during history lesson, Ivanka with Giovina and Tommy came over to borrow my hardisk for my some movies and a set of speaker. Since i returned it to X-1, i went there to take it and i personally brought it to XI-Soc-01.

There, Tiffany was teased (like some people mentioning Tikang and stuff) , and the whole class kinda sang me a happy birthday song. Since i didnt know how to reply (esp. it's not my class) i just set the speaker up for them. After finished singing the song, they shout " Kiss! Kiss! Kiss!" and no i wasnt going to do that. When i almost got out, i was hold back by Imelda and Miss Yenny asked me to shake hand again with her. Knowing that we have shaken hand before, we just did it again and yeah.(second time baby!). I thanked everyone inside that class before going back to my class).

Then, when i was going to Biology laboratory, i checked the drawer of everyone and i found some candles forming 1 and 6. I guess it was meant for my cake. SO it was funny.

Then, during lunch, I wanted to have cane but the dude either went home or didn't come at all. So , i went to get some chicken porridge and went back to my class to eat beside Ticung. During ELDS, Elvira didn't show up even though she asked everyone to come. So Sir Patrick after waiting an hour or so, offered us to play a game. So we did play, 2 games in fact ,which were a game of concentration and 7 up. Before Sir Patrick came, Agnes asked me to open the gift many people bought for me, watch from Revel. She said some deep things to me :




"You know how we're going to be separated soon? Well, distance won't keep us apart but time will. So keep watch of your time"


Later, because we were dismissed by 2, i went to play some badminton with Tiffany, Jitas and Andre. There i found angeline, vincent sukirman, victor tanoto and toby. When i got home, i opened the present some other people gave me. Louis gave it to me first thing in the morning, It was from Xandra, Kartika, Justina, Tracy and Louis. Xandra said she didn't want to have debts towards me so yeah.

They gave me another dictionary bookmark ( i received one last year) so i wanted to give it to little bro. And a book about..... how to get laid. I don't they realize what's inside but who cares. hahaha. So in the end, today was fun and everything. It might be just another day in my life, but i"ll treasure it for a long time.



Sunday, February 2, 2014

Why?WHy?

I decided to make this post since lately an increasing number of people asked me why Astronomy?

Well... to be honest, i thought i did not know why.
And that question dwindled in me for quite some time.
Then again, i asked myself

'Why did I actually choose that?
Why did I take this path?
Why did i decide to make do with this lifestyle?'

And there were more questions.And i found the answer.
I chose this path because i believed that this is the right path for me.
That with this, 
I can satiate my hunger for knowledge
I can help more people understand the beauty of life, nature and the universe itself.
I can make good use of my time
I can be better than the loser me.
I can experience world in whole new different ways.

I was right though, I did live life the way i wanted to.
I succeeded in being better, being knowledgeable.

Nevertheless, despite this pain, tiredness, restlessness, and anxiety, I know that this is not how everything suppose to end my journey. I knew that my problem is not big at all. I knew that i'm just exaggerating it, and how much i wanted to run away from it.

I can't believe how initially everything seemed easy and the closer I am to all of this, the harder is the shit life throws at me.
Sometimes i wanted to cry pitying myself, but i didn't cause i wanted to be stronger than before.
Many people have bigger problems than i do, many people couldn't be able to get the chance i've got.
And of course, many people's dream got crushed by me.

That's why i'll keep pushing forward in this life, through the shit and everything life threw at me.
My motto is to "never live life in regret for all is well", and i'm astounded to know that i've never even regretted my own decision to take this path.

I just hope that my will would be strong enough and at last i"ll be able to end something that i actually started.
And i have the strength to overcome my weakness for me, for my friends and for everyone who've believed in me my whole life.

Let me end this post by giving you a piece of quote i found hilarious yet inspiring
"Happiness is having the urge to take a dump and be able to find a nice place with a sprayer and closet to let everything go" - Unknown